A Moment

I must admit i do have those days where i’ll feel so funny, i’ll laugh and laugh but in actual fact, i just want to cry. It’s like all these laughter is just masking everything. It doesn’t happen often but when it does, i feel pitiful for myself for being in such a state.

Macam xiao cha bor.

I don’t know.

Mental? No, i am not crazy. Still too young la to be crazy. I have 4 young kids to look after, how to be crazy? it will be so irresponsible of me to not look after myself more especially when my children need me. My teachers need me. My family and siapa2 lah need me.

Emotional? Everyone’s emotional in a way or another. Women being women, we tend to be more emotional but i think it’s our right. Like suka hati lah nak melalak 24 jam ke, nak ketawa for hours ke. Ye tak? As long as i don’t hurt anyone. I don’t see any problem in being emotional because i know that i am not affecting or pulling anyone with me. Lain lah kalau kita melalak then pukul bedal dia. Tu lain story! LOL.

Anyway, i am just trying to figure out this new arrangement. For me. I need it. For my sanity. For me to function happily macam any other woman on the streets. Most importantly i need to function for my 4 kids.